Just plugged into the prayer forum this morning. So sorry to hear of your loss, Pam. I'm not fully aware of your father's beliefs, but I'm sure more people are going to be in the kingdom than a large percentage of the population likes to believe.

As far as being horrible, I'm glad for two things (among others). I'm glad we're saved by grace and I'm glad it doesn't take mountains of faith to find ourselves in the kingdom. I wish you a happy reunion with your father when the time comes.

"And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?" John 11:26 NKJV

"If you ask Me anything in My name, I will do it." John 14:14 NASB

"After these things I saw, and lo, a great multitude, which to number no one was able, out of all nations, and tribes, and peoples, and tongues, standing before the throne, and before the Lamb, arrayed in white robes, and palms in their hands" Rev 7:9 YLT

"And Jesus said unto them,...verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed,.....nothing shall be impossible unto you."

I can't believe you've never prayed and asked that your father on earth might be saved in God's kingdom.
Blessings!!

Thank you G4J, MG, and LHC... and everyone else..
The support I've had from you all here has been life-saving. Literally.

I just wish I could talk to my dad one more time. I still feel like a bad daughter.... and I cannot forget his last breaths.. they were torture to him - and to me.

Pam -

I so understand your need to talk to your dad one more time. My father died of lung cancer, and at the end was terribly weak, and wracked with pain.

I visited him in the hospital shortly before he died, and he opened his eyes and recognized me... only to use every bit of his strength to ask me for my forgiveness!

For a decade I have wondered what preyed upon his mind so strongly that some of his last words were to ask... no... beg me, specifically, for forgiveness. To my knowledge he did not do so with any of his other children. It took everything he had to get those two words out...

Pam, you are loved and cared about by all your friends here. ) We have seen your heart of love and compassion. It is evident in your posts and what you care about. You care deeply about both your papa and mama... having seen the evidence, I can state you are NOT A BAD DAUGHTER!

Clio

Dear Pam,

This is the part of grief that is so hard........hang in there (that sounds so lame....) and please come here any time that you need encouragement or need to VENT!! There are so many of us who have lost our parents and can sympathize with this struggle you are having to endure. I am so glad that I can be of a little support to you, you have certainly challenged my thinking in a lot of ways, and I am honored to be able to be there in even a tiny way for you at this time.

You are loved, and I am keeping you close in thought and prayer. Clio just says it so much more eloquently....

Love,
Morning Glory

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Dear Pam, I'm sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.