I continue to be amazed as I see evidence of God's leading in this marriage. I am now seeing the fulfillment of something I dreamed of doing, over twenty years ago. Doors are wide open to do what I had long hoped to do, and because of Patricia, and the providential leading of God, great things are happening. I can only, once again, thank the Lord!
I also, upon reflection, wish to take this opportunity to clarify some confusion which may have arisen from a previous post I made on this thread. Shortly before the wedding, I commented on how I had observed God's leading, as well as how I had seen evidence of satan attempting to disrupt things. I understand that some had wondered what this was referring to. One issue had to do with resolving what to do about my first marriage, and my first wife, long-since divorced. The confusion for me arose out of claims of a particular individual to be receiving impressions about my first wife, and the possibility or desirability of reconciliation. That threw me for a loop. Turned out the impressions were bogus. And, other events occurred. Incidents and developments had a common thread, a common bottom line: turning my head this way and that, drawing me first one direction, then another--all in the greatest sincerity. For the longest time, I was noncommittal, across the board. Over the years, as different ones had expressed interest in me, I had given each one a similar response--that I was in a holding pattern, and needed to wait for a 'green light' from God. I have had a tendency, in various applications, to run ahead of God. In something this important, I felt that, particularly because of my rather impulsive nature, I needed that green light, that clear sense of God's leading and His blessing. As I shared this concern with those who had expressed interest, they were understanding, but became tired of waiting. I could not go forward until I had that green light. While i was waiting, these others ended up going a different direction, or simply 'wrote off' any future relationship. So, I got my answer, each time. In a number of cases, what initially I had thought was from God, as time progressed, turned out not to be.
I told Patricia, too,that I had to wait for that green light. The time came, quite recently, when I sat down and took a careful look at all the evidence I had to work with. Things seemed to add up, and point in a specific direction. It also appeared that satan didn't want me to marry Patricia. Well, if he didn't, then clearly God did. As that became clear to me, as I carefully reviewed all the evidence, that green light finally came on. Once it did, I acted promptly to follow through--popped the question within a few days. She told me later that she had given up hope. I'm glad she didnt' walk away! She had every right to. I would like to point out that, in my situation, I didn't hear a 'voice' telling me, 'this is the one.' It seems like God wanted me to sift through things, and reach a studied conclusion. After I had done that, THEN I got that sense of God's leading.
No doubt, I am a bit slow to figure things out. But I am thankful that God is patient, and that Patricia was patient!
Dave
Edited by David Koot (11/17/07 07:15 AM)
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I promise to get more active on C/A again. Much has been happening. It is so absolutely thrilling to see God working! As for the septic tank . . . that has been one bone of contention . . . I have been urged not to use so much TP! But I have drawn a line in the sand--or whatever, on that point.
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