I feel the same way. This is a very good question. Nothing is going to match the high that comes from believing that you have been with the God of the universe. And for those girls who had their first sexual experiences with Wayne, the recovery is going to be a lifetime, unless we discover ways to bridge that gap more quickly. And if one does awaken to the false claims, the feelings of betrayal are extreme. If you have no system of grace, the self recrimination can be overwhelming. In the case of this cult, the evidence is apparent, when the children who were taken from Strong City, went on hunger strikes to get back. Wayne Bent himself went on a hunger strike while he was in prison.

Few people understand the enormity of the harm because many parts of the personality are operating normally and if a person is bright enough they can split the painful parts off and keep them suppressed. Too many underestimate the power of shame and fear combined with beliefs that are unassailable by reason.

This recovery requires far more than a simple mental understanding. The programming involves the whole body and a person's emotional belief system. This requires a community of loving people who understand the path out of this and its pitfalls. This process is beyond any one person.