Dear Lord,

I wake up in the morning and i ask myself,
is life worth living or shall i blast myself?
I am trapped in hell so long now,
bitter, cold and lonely

I cannot even remember the times when i was young,
smiling and laughing all day,
got so many friend but they are all gone,
I wonder, How did i became this strong?

Cause i guess nobody could survive the pain that i ve been trough
So what s up? where is your crew?
Know one thing 4 sure, can t do without you,
either you come and rescue me, or i ll die alone

I wonder, why i even have a phone?
Mentally trapped and going crazy,
Everybody around me thinks i am just lazy,
Maybe i have to start changin so nobody can face me

No matter what comes, I don t care any more,
i know u want to destroy me eternally,
I don t have the mindpower to still see,
what a tremendous event that will be,

I ask you lord, where is my conciousness?
I am disgusting so i don t even know why i cling to false hope,
There is no way i can go home,
It s all too late now,

I wonder how?, you could not fullfill the promises of the messiah,
Don t think i am callin you a liah,
But my thoughts are free so i can t help i am gonna fry,
It doesnt matter though, frozen hearts never cry

Where do you surrender all the people to satan his hands?
Would it matter if it is functional or just a romance?
because i cannot see the difference,
children are dying and animals suffer,
And the only one that is able to do something about it,
is you working through man like jesus said it would be done,

So i wonder, are you gone?
Why arent people being healed?
And why is truth hidden for the human eye?
It are these questions that make me cry and mad,

I have never wanted to follow you because of your power alone,
But because i believed that you were righteous 100 percent,
i am sure that if i am gone,
Some of my questions will be eternally ignored

You want everybody to be afraid of you,
and i have to admit, most of em will do,
but all i care about is truth,

There is nothing left of me now,
so burn me as long as you wish,
cause i am already dead

amen

I wrote this poem for someone once.

When I pray Lord, do you hear?
I can't see you, are you there?
Being 'lone is what I fear,
being 'lone is what I fear.

In my heart can you abide,
in my heart and at my side?
In you I need to confide,
in you I need to confide.

Can I tell you what I dread?
I hope my heart you have read.
See that I need to be led,
see that I need to be led.

Show me Lord that you're with me.
Want to sense your majesty.
“I'm with you!” please Lord, decree,
“I'm with you!” please Lord, decree.

Help me understand your speech.
Me to listen, please Lord teach.
Please stay in my voice's reach,
please stay in my voice's reach.

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another one I wrote for myself

Yes, my Lord, I've heard your voice.
You've always spoken to me.
I ne'er took time to listen.
To me, you have said so much.

In hindsight, I can see clear,
see that you've always been there.
See you did answer my prayer.
If only I'd tried to hear.

Copyright © by Nishaun Smith
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here is another

You secured me all day long.
Potent angels kept me strong.
Now again I've done you wrong,
now again I've done you wrong.

Lord, what can I do I'm weak.
Teach me to hear when you speak.
Good I want, evil I seek,
good I want, evil I seek.

Heal me from that dragon's bite.
Against Satan help me fight.
Help me Lord to lust for right,
help me Lord to lust for right.

Shown love all I knew was hate,
your hope took my hopeless fate.
To dwell there, can hardly wait,
to dwell there, can hardly wait.

Where evil can't come for me.
In your place I want to be.
Always to eternity,
always to eternity.

Copyright © by Nishaun Smith
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