I am tired of doing nothing. All the bible promises i ever claimed were never fullfilled. I know i am far from perfect, but i have always followed my conscious. I gave everything up for Jesus. I am tired of repeating this, but the fact remains that i am very lonely, filled with anger and dissapointments. It is not just a personal matter, but also tied to the fate of millions of poor homeless people for which i feel compassion but am not able to change because God will not help me/them. Now i am consistent. This implicitly means that:

1. I cannot take the bible for every word. None of Gods promises were fullfilled after years of begging.
2. I cannot trust God for receiving special powers to change the world.

This keeps me thinking. Maybe this whole idea of good VS evil is just an invention. From now on i ll strive for freedom and the creation of an identity of mankind. Why worship a God that puts people on earth in a living hell. There is no such thing as good or evil. Would it matter if satan or God put me in hell?in both cases i ll end up in hell anyway. Right now, i hate God and his evil policy.

Now i really don t give a damn about my destiny. I know i ll end up in hell anyway. Therefore i think i ll join freemasonry in order to attain my three goals: 1. Create an identity for mankind 2. Freedom for all 3. Basic necessities for every human being.

For instance, If i had the power i would redistribute food from the rich and give it to the poor. God would say that that is stealing. Our God rather wants to see millions of peoples die, than give up one of his own principles, which he hypocritically breaks all the time (for instance with the flood). There is no good and there is no evil. I never thought that i would ever feel so much compassion with those that are lost, maybe they are truly fighting for something honourable, freedom from the tyranny of an evil God. We are only created to bring HIM joy on HIS conditions that rape OUR wellbeing.

Hi Friend.

I pray that God will be with you no matter where you go and what you are doing. Glorify God is all that you do.

Life is hard and very confusing. I pray you will have peace.

Thanks for sharing the latest with us. I always enjoy hearing from you but am sorry for your pain.

Red

Do "something" then.

Maybe you're not claiming the ones meant for you.

Mark 8:34
Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.'

Everything? Really, every thing?

Yep. Me too. God's filled with disappointments too.

Maybe God's got a plan that you just don't understand. Even Judas wanted to use the money to help feed the poor, but Jesus told him there would be poor always.


Tell that to Moses. I seem to recall he waited for 40 years. (How old are you??)

Nope--'cause He never promised you special powers.

But you can DO SOMETHING. You can make a difference for one:

The Starfish Story

There was once a wise old man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. One day as he walked along
the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. As he got closer, he saw
that it was a young man, and the young man wasn’t dancing, but instead was reaching down to the shore,
picking up starfish, and very gently throwing them into the ocean.
“Good morning! What are you doing?” asked the wise man. The young man paused, looked up, and replied,
“Throwing starfish into the ocean. The sun is rising, and the tide is out. And if I don’t throw them in, they’ll
die.”
“But, young man, don’t you realize that there are miles of beach and thousands of starfish all along it? You
can’t possibly make a difference!”
The young man, listening politely, bent down and picked up another starfish, throwing it into the sea past the
breaking waves. Turning to the old man, he modestly replied,
“It made a difference for that one.”